Behind the Music: The Stories Behind the Lyrics 🎶
Hey everybody! I just want to tell everyone that I love you and thank you for sticking with me. In this blog post, I want to share the backstories behind my music and go deeper into the origins of my songs. I know I’ve touched on some of these tracks here and there, but I wanted to gather the origin stories all in one place. Whether you’re hearing these stories for the first time or you’re a long-time fan who just loves the music, I think you’ll really enjoy this look behind the scenes.
If you haven’t heard my music yet, you can listen to previews directly on this page using the web player below. You can also stream my full tracks on my main music page, Spotify, Apple Music, and all other major streaming platforms. Without further ado, let’s jump into it!
🦶 1. Feet On My Face (Originally Released: June 2, 2017 | Worldwide: June 4, 2017)
We’re starting off with my very first song, “Feet On My Face.” It has been described by listeners as a bold, unapologetic foot fetish rap anthem. To understand this track, you have to realize that back in 2017, nobody was making music like this. The topic was heavily stigmatized, people weren’t nearly as open about it as they are today, and only a handful of underground rappers were making professional studio quality music about it. It was a completely different time, which is exactly why the song blew up and went viral.
🎬 The Underground Debut: PMVN Media & The Animated Video
The song was originally released on June 2, 2017. It was presented as an animated music video and debuted on a small indie podcast company called PMVN Media. It dropped exclusively for their audience, which was all about the underground music scene. I was a regular at the show and became friends with the owner. He offered to make a free animated music video for my song, and I said, “Yeah, sure, no problem!”
I had it released on their YouTube channel just to test the grounds and see if people liked it or not. Once I saw that everybody loved the song, I made the move to release it worldwide across all music streaming platforms on June 4th.
🎪 The Spark: From Festival Chaos to Viral Vision
To make a long story short, the inspiration came from a music festival in the summer of 2016. I was painted up as FlipFlop the Clown and ended up getting a little “foot action”—specifically, a foot up my ass. That wild experience inspired me to write a rap song about it. I figured if I made a foot fetish track and it went viral, the next time I went to the festival, I’d get a lot more attention from women’s feet. And that is exactly what happened! I go into much more detail about this in my semi-animated cartoon storytime video, “🦶Foot Up My Ass 🍑 | 🎬 Storytime: EP # 4.“
🎓 DIY Music School: Learning the Craft from Scratch
When I got home from that festival, I literally had to Google “how to rap” because I didn’t know jack shit about making music. It took me an entire year of intense trial and error to finish the song. I had to learn how to count bars, flow over a beat, and structure a track while keeping the delivery raw and authentic. My main motivation was just to get more feet, but the steep learning curve required pure obsession to actually get the track across the line.
💔 Fuel Behind the Fire: The Breakup, the Apps, and a Quest for Attention
Beyond the festival hype, the song was fueled by heavy personal frustration. I had just come out of a long-term relationship of many years after my girlfriend cheated on me. Suddenly finding myself single and back on the market, I threw myself onto the online dating apps to try and move on.
Admittedly, a part of me also wanted to make my ex jealous. I figured if I could get massively popular in the foot fetish world, it would absolutely grab her attention—and honestly, it actually worked! I completely blocked her, but the noise from my success still managed to get back to her.
But navigating those apps as a single guy with a specific kink was a nightmare. Every weekend, I’d take a different woman to a nice, fancy restaurant—I think the waitstaff was getting suspicious because I was always there. I would be a total gentleman and pay for everything, but the moment my foot fetish came up, they would treat me like absolute shit. I’d spend hundreds of dollars on the dates feeding them, only for them to have the audacity to call me a creeper and mock me. People on dating apps would match with me just to bully me, call me a loser, and literally wish death upon me just because they were disgusted.
✊ Turning Judgement into Power
That was the harsh feedback I was getting from the world, and it pushed me to make a change. Before this, I always kept lying to myself. I would look at myself in the mirror and pretend that I was happy at my job and happy with where I was in life. But one day, entirely frustrated by all these terrible dates, I stopped the bullshitting and stopped lying to myself.
I had a moment of pure, brutal honesty. I looked in the mirror and asked myself, “Why am I wasting all of this time and money on these dates if the only thing I want is their feet?” I finally faced the real questions: What do I really want in life? What will actually make me happy? And my raw response to myself was: “I want some feet on my face, that’s what I fucking want.”
Instead of letting the rejection break me, that breakthrough hardened my resolve. I told myself, “I’m not going to let the world dictate who I am or control my life. I’m going to change the world and make it accept me.” I channeled all of that raw energy straight into “Feet On My Face.”
Publishing it completely changed my life. It transformed from a simple viral goal into a cultural middle finger to the judgers. I’ve been getting plenty of feet ever since, and the fans love it. It’s a completely unapologetic track. I don’t care what people think; I’m just speaking my truth based on real events from my life.
👵 2. Goodbye (Released: June 11, 2019)
My second song, “Goodbye,” was meant to be a total tearjerker. It’s a deeply sad song about my grandmother, who passed away on May 16, 2019. I won’t dive too deep into it here because I wrote an entire dedicated article called “The Origins of Goodbye,” but here is the brief backstory.
I released the track on June 11, 2019, about a month after she passed, and followed it up with a music video on September 15 of the same year.
🎲 The Power of 17: Alignment and Auspicious Timing
I intentionally released the track on June 11, 2019. If you look at the date digits (6/11), they add up perfectly to 17—which is my ultimate lucky number. For me, 17 isn’t just a random digits sequence; it is a recurring sign from the universe that I am exactly on the right path. Whenever the number 17 enters the room, major positive shifts happen in my life. I don’t even have to seek it out; it just finds me. For instance, my current apartment number ends in 17, completely by chance without me choosing it. Dropping the song on a date tied to 17 was my way of aligning this deeply personal tribute with the universe’s guidance.
🏥 Bedside Rehearsals: Music in the Midst of Grief
The raw emotion in this track comes from a very heavy, real place. When my grandmother was dying, I was practically living at the hospital with her to make sure I didn’t miss a single moment. While she was in a medically induced morphine coma, I would actually sit by her bedside to rehearse, practice, and perform this song directly to her. It is an incredibly emotional track because it reflects the exact pain, heartbreak, and quiet atmosphere of what I was processing in those final moments.
🌌 Beyond the Veil: The Unspoken Spiritual Journey
That intense emotional experience is only half the story, though. I shared the second half two months ago in another article titled, “I Crossed Over to the Spirit World — And Came Back✨.” In that piece, I dive deep into some truly wild, spiritual events that happened to me during her final days—things I simply wasn’t emotionally ready to talk about back when the track originally dropped. The official music video gives you a closer look at this profound journey, and I even included real home video footage of my grandmother and me at the very end to anchor that memory forever.
🕊️ A Legacy of Unconditional Love
My grandmother was a beautiful soul and the rare type of person everyone loved. She lived a life with absolutely no enemies, which is almost impossible to find in the world nowadays. If you came to her home, she always had a warm, home-cooked meal ready for you, an open ear, and nothing but unconditional love to give.
Rest in peace. I know she went to heaven because I saw it with my own eyes.
🕯️ 3. In My Shrine (Released: July 24, 2021)
My third song is called “In My Shrine.” This track is all about BDSM—specifically, the spiritual side of it. For anyone who might not know, BDSM involves dominants and submissives, and it is a major pillar of the alternative lifestyle community. If you want a quick visual aid to better understand what the lifestyle looks like, you can simply go to your favorite porn website and type “BDSM” into the search bar. While plenty of tracks out there mention this world, almost nobody touches on the spiritual side of it. That is exactly what makes this song so unique.
🔄 Flipping the Narrative: The Submissive Male Perspective
What truly sets this track apart from mainstream music is how it flips traditional roles on their head. Usually, when songs mention BDSM, they focus on a dominant male being aggressive and abusive toward a submissive woman. The industry is saturated with that exact trope, making it incredibly rare to hear the story told from the perspective of a submissive male. By centering the song on my own vulnerability, it shatters the usual stereotypes and offers a completely fresh lens on the dynamic. Furthermore, the track openly explores and promotes themes of female supremacy, highlighting a dynamic where power is entirely shifted to the woman.
🌌 The Phenomenon of Subspace: Keeping it 100% Real
Written from my perspective as a male submissive in a relationship with a dominatrix, the song explores a profound psychological and physical phenomenon known as “subspace.” I wanted to take my real-life BDSM experiences and keep it 100% real. Yes, a portion of the lyrics and verses were inspired by a specific woman that I referenced in an old blog article titled “Valentine’s Day, the shittiest day of the year 4 me!” and also mentioned in a storytime video called “✈️ Airplane Jack-Off 💦 | 🎬 Storytime: EP # 3.” While those parts point directly to her, the track as a whole was actually inspired by the many deep connections I’ve shared with different dominatrices throughout my life.
🧎 A Sacred Bond: Worshipping the Goddess
The spiritual side of BDSM is rarely talked about because the community tends to view it as something deeply personal, discreet, and sacred. Even if you try to research it online, you won’t find much information for that exact reason. It is a super personal, sacred spiritual bond between two people where I view the dominatrix as a goddess to be worshipped.
🎬 Serving the Mistress: The Uncensored Live-Action Promo Video
To give fans a raw look into this dynamic, I put together a live-action promotional music video alongside Mistress Lady Luna in Springville, Indiana. This features real-life footage of me as the main character getting beaten up and dominated by her and many other women in the BDSM session. Because this live-action footage is completely uncensored, it cannot be hosted on standard video platforms; you can only find it on my official website or a few other select adult sites. If you want to check out the action yourself, you can watch the BDSM Session by Mistress Lady Luna – In My Shrine Promo (Uncensored) directly on my site.
🗓️ The 24/7 Alignment: Releasing on International BDSM Day
When I was promoting the track, I actually wrote a dedicated blog article titled, “Releasing New Song July 24th! 🎶 In My Shrine 🕯️” to dive even deeper into the subject. I intentionally chose to release the song on July 24, 2021, because it lands on International BDSM Day. The date itself is a nod to the lifestyle: the 7th month and the 24th day represent living the BDSM lifestyle 24/7.
The official description for the song sums it up perfectly: “Step into a world where mysticism meets desire, and feel the power of a storytelling rap that boldly explores the spiritual side of BDSM.”
🍻 4. Beers And Toes (Released: April 23, 2023)
My most recent track is called “Beers And Toes.” I dropped this one on April 23, 2023, and I used a bit of clever holiday marketing for this release date too. I wanted to drop a beer-themed song but didn’t want to wait all the way until Oktoberfest. Being a bit impatient, I looked up the nearest unknown beer holiday and found German Beer Day on April 23rd!
🎪 The Lifestyle: Festivals, Sling Bags, and Foot Worship
This song perfectly captures the exact lifestyle I was living at the time. Back then, my personal motto was all about drinking beers and sucking toes. I actually first announced the concept publicly during a 2018 Facebook Live video with my friends titled, “Prepping Up For Day 3 Of The Gathering of the Juggalos with Big L.A., Bronx Obama, Mike & Cookie.”
Back in those days, I was hitting up tons of music festivals and events. I’d bring aluminum beer cans into a music festival inside a sling bag, spend my days worshipping dirty, muddy women’s feet, and then wash it all down with a cold beer. I absolutely loved it. The track is best described as a wild, funky rap anthem that mashes up the beer-drinking and foot-fetish lifestyles into one.
🚫 Drawing the Line: No Vices But Beers & Toes
The deeper inspiration for the track came from a weird pattern I noticed after “Feet On My Face” went viral. Because people knew me as the “foot guy,” they assumed I must be into all kinds of wild, heavy stuff. People at parties would constantly try to offer me free drugs, thinking that if I was into feet, I must love coke or other substances too. I didn’t want any of that. I wrote this song to make it crystal clear to the world that I only have two vices: beers and toes. I don’t do drugs, period.
🧘 Evolution and Simple Pleasures
I’m a lot more focused on health and fitness nowadays, so I don’t drink nearly as much beer as I used to. But once in a while, my favorite pastime is still just relaxing with a great beer, watching beautiful women walk by in flip-flops, and enjoying the view. If I can find a great woman with beautiful feet to sit by my side, I’ve won. It’s that simple.
✊ Born This Way: Demanding Respect for the Fetish
I also wanted to use this track to remind people that I was born with a foot fetish. It’s not a phase, and it’s not something I “caught” like a virus; I’ve been into women’s feet for as long as I can remember. When you explain to people that it’s just how you were born, they stop laughing and start taking you seriously.
If society can accept people’s sexual orientations or gender transitions, there is absolutely no reason to draw the line at a man who simply loves worshipping women’s feet. That is the exact energy and truth I threw into this song. As long as you aren’t breaking laws or harming anyone, there is absolutely nothing wrong with living your authentic lifestyle.
💸 Looking Ahead: Future Music & How to Support
And those are all the tracks I’ve released so far! It might not be a massive catalog yet, but every single song represents a real, unfiltered chapter of my life. I still have so many more songs that I want to publish. The truth is, I just don’t have the funds to jump into a recording studio and put a track together at the moment. As I’ve mentioned before, making professional studio quality music is definitely not cheap. I have a whole catalog of songs written and completely ready to go, but the financial side of publishing is holding things back.
If you want to donate and help fund the next studio session, any support would be deeply appreciated! But right now, my main priority has to be keeping a roof over my head and keeping my belly fed. That’s the real reason I haven’t released any new tracks lately.
I absolutely want to release more music in the near future. I have so many ideas just waiting for me to step back into the studio and get to work. But for now, these are the songs I have out there, and I’m incredibly proud of them.
Thank you all again for reading, listening, and being part of this journey with me!